Ilham went missing in a glimpse while we were shopping. We were in a shop, Papa was trying his outfit n I was chasing Iffah as she frequently walked out the shop. Elder 2 was in the shop as well. But suddenly I couldn’t locate where Ilham was. Im sure he was inside the shop, at the gents’ area but he was not there.
Papa straight away ran n searched for him while carrying Iffah (with the shop’s item on him). Even the promoter helped us, ran ‘ere n there for Ilham but we still couldn’t locate him. I’d checked again in the shop just in case he was there but he wasn’t.
I couldn’t describe my feelings. It was a total blank. Just can’t believe it’s happening to us. I later took Iffah from Papa so that he can focus searching for Ilham n I’d took care of the girls n slowly searched in every shop. My mouth can’t stop saying Allahuakbar n recited Al-Insyirah. I always belief in that Surah can give me solace and relief when facing hard times and I put into practice, reading that Surah to my kids when they are about to sleep. Papa, he repeated recite Ayatul Kursi while searching for Ilham.
Alhamdulillah Allah heard our prayers. After 5 mins of searching, Papa heard Ilham crying n a guy was carrying him. Papa just got the chance to ask that guy ‘Anak sape ni?’ n took Ilham from him n later say thanx. No further investigation.
Some suggested that we should check the cctv. Some blamed that guy was a bad guy. Some said if it was in their shoes, they’ll cry immediately. We don’t know his intention. He could be an angel, who’d helped us to save Ilham from any harm, he could be the opposite. So, no point of doing all those. Crying will not help either. At that point of time, we just want Ilham to be found n that’s about it.
The bottom line is IT IS OUR FAULT. We did our post mortem when we left the mall. Quick fix is not to go to the mall with the kids but it’s unfair for them. Missing kids happened everywhere, even their school or playground but that doesn’t mean we should stop them from going to those places. As parents, we should be alert at all times and we agreed on the following points
1) When 1 of us is searching of sth, another person should be taking care of the kids no matter how rushing u r at that point of time.
2) Never assume. Always need to make sure that they are with either one of us and confirm.
Sounds very simple but that always became the last thing on our mind.
Come to think again, that’s the most unbearable moment in our life. Panick, blank, confuse, hopeless, complicated to describe. I felt as if my heart stopped pumping the moment Papa found him. How relief I was. Cant imagine if he went missing longer than that. That nearmiss really give a slap on our face, hard one. Iman was really scared as well. She kept on asking why he went missing.
I wish we can just forget that moment but we shouldn’t. It was our lesson learnt n it must be freshly remembered so that it won’t happen again. Never. At home, I cried everytime I think about that moment. I just can’t imagine how our life would be, how his life would be. N now I really understand the feelings of parents whom kids were missing for long. The feeling is unacceptable.
I really pray that this will never happen either to u or ur siblings, my boy. :(